Do you ever...?

Get in the bath, go under the water and suddenly feel at peace with the world? Then you come crashing back up for air and everything goes back to the way it was. I wish I felt like I was underwater all the time. Someone told me once that apparently the feeling of drowning, not the panic of it and trying to get up to air, but actually letting go and just drowning, is a really euphoric feeling. I can kind of understand that. I constantly feel like I’m in that panic stage; gasping for air trying to escape. Then I hear a certain song, I see a certain person, I smell a certain smell and I’m right back under the water in my bath tub, at peace with the world.

Lauren x