We're going through changes.

I was really excited for going home for Christmas this year. To spend the day with my family; my parents, my nan, my sister and my two nephews. I am still really looking forward to going home for Christmas, but this year it'll just be four of us as my Sister is having Christmas at her house with her boys this year, so it's gonna feel so strange to spend Christmas day without them. We'll go around to see them in the morning to give presents and see them and everything as usual, so I'll get to see them but it's going to feel super strange knowing they're not coming around. Sometimes it's really hard being 20 in my house. I can guarantee that my Mum, Dad and Nan are all going to fall asleep after Christmas dinner and I'll be left to watch bad television by myself. It's nice when my nephews are here because I get to be with them when everyone's fallen asleep. Having kids around always makes occasions better, it's just like a hole has been filled and your life is complete. This is why I know I want to be a Mum one day; I hate the thought of a life without children in it. Maybe that's what's behind my desire to be a teacher too. I just love children, they're so innocent and have so much to learn and I admire their bravery and courage. Christmas this year is going to be spent in reflection of all the time I've had with my nephews and how lucky I've been to have such a beautiful family. I hope one day I can give my parents some grandchildren, my nephews some cousins and my sister some nieces or nephews. Feeling especially broody today, do forgive me.

Lauren x