A heartfelt happy new year to anyone who reads this.
I'm not a big believer in coincidences, I like to think that fate brings things together for us, and the power behind fate? Nature. It's just nature taking it's course. I read somewhere online (if you know who it was please let me know so I can credit it!) that soul mates are when the earth was created and atoms divide and that atom becomes you, the nearest atom to you is your soul mate. I'm really not doing it justice but i thought it was beautiful. I like to think everyone has a soul mate, but not in the sense that they are a romantic person to you. I think people can find their soul mate in a best friend, a sister or brother and of course in a partner. it's little things like this that I like to think about sometimes when I'm in my room by myself and have thoughts running through my head that I'd like to get rid of.
I ask myself questions like 'where do trains go at night?' or 'do bald people use shampoo' and of course 'who or what decides what way up rolos go in the packet?' The important questions, y'know. I had a thought a minute ago about how I've felt being home from uni for the Christmas break. It's been really odd and I have only felt comfortably at home in my room and I've only found motivation for doing work when in my bedroom. It made me think of Cast Away. When Chuck is rescued from the ocean and brought back to land and civilisation and his wife, he goes to bed but can't sleep on the bed, he sleeps on the floor like he would have done on the island. That's how I feel being home. I've been at uni in my tiny little halls room for the last three months and coming home to a big house and a big bed, I've found myself curling up in bed at night against the wall, feeling stimulated to do work only in my room and nowhere else in the house and I've only felt hungry when I'm in my room which is also really weird. Maybe it's just my body trying to get back to normal. which is a shame because I go back for a week tomorrow to hand in assignments (the joy).
Anyway, i just wanted to share these little thoughts with you. I hope that you can find somewhere that's home. Home is where you leave and people notice your absence. I'm home. Home is also Cambridge. Home was at my work at Northampton Cineworld because people told me all the time when i left that they missed me and it felt different without me there (I'm not trying to big myself up here, it genuinely happened and I did a bit of a cry because of it). But now I can't go back because of lack of job space, apparently. So I miss my CineFamily from Northampton, but I miss my CineFamily from Cambridge now that I'm home.
Most of all, from Cambridge, I miss my philosophers. My little group of nerds, my favourite people in my Cambridge world. Kayleigh, Ricky, Kristie, Ronan, Ben and Dave. My little group of amazing people. Kayleigh is one of the coolest people I've ever met; she works at Game, plays all kinds of cool games (incl. LoL, WoW, Warhammer, knack etc...) and loves Adventure Time and has super long brown hair and is super pretty and funny and caring and lovely and I love her. How do I explain Ricky/ Ricky is like a mix between the big brother I've always wanted and the person you want your daughter to bring home (if you want kids/have a daughter). He's witty, hilarious, charming, interesting and just such a lovely guy. Kristie is awesome. She's such a chatterbox and i love being around her because she's always so happy and bubbly and she's hilarious when she's angry. We have the same pet peeves and we joke about them together to ease the anger we have for it, which is nice (and can be super comical over a few cocktails). Ronan is one of the most interesting people I know. I feel like I don't know enough about him and I want to know everything. He's a teacher in Cambridge and he teaches English to French students which I think is amazing. He's our go-to guy for ale/beer advice and he's like a sponge of knowledge. It's like every subject we talk about he has something really interesting and insightful to say about it and I always feel like my IQ has gone up every time I'm with him. I haven't really spent too much time with Ben because he only does Philosophy whereas me and the others (excl. Dave) all do English Literature as well. But the times I've spent with Ben are always funny. He's got a proper strong accent and comes out with the funniest things in mid-conversation that make my belly hurt sometimes with laughter. He's a sound guy and nice as pie, a really good laugh and I wish he spent more time with us. Last but not least is Dave, also known as Dentistry Dave and Diogenes Dave. We wont get into that. Dave's really smart and speaks his mind when he disagrees with something or thinks something needs to be said and I really respect him for that. He's fun to be around because he's such an oddball, but in a really good way. He adds character to our group (as if we needed any more?!) but he's like the cherry on top. Our debates in the pub over cocktails/beer/burgers are always heated but they're always mentally stimulating and funny and interesting. Dave's the kind of guy you can be friends with for your whole life because he's such an interesting person.
I just thought I'd let you all know. I haven't done much justice to the description of my nearest and dearest from Cambridge but if you met them I'm sure you'd feel the same way.
I hope that for all of you who believe that the new year is a new start, that you get what you want and hope for out of 2014 but remembers, it's what you put in that equals what comes out.
Lauren x
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